I really want to kill myself.. I have absolutely had it.. I want to die?

I want to die so much, I need to die. I can't take it anymore... Suicide hotlines are useless.. Whenever I call, they always call the police and ambulance on me, and I've had it with them.. I've had it with the hospital, the doctors, the psychatrists, the therapists and everyone. I fired my therapist last week and she keeps calling me because she wants to talk to me and she wants to see me one last time to finalize everything.. What the hell is there to finalize.. I hate her, I don't want to see her, and that's it.. But she calls every god damn day. I am cutting myself out from everyone and everything and I'm so pissed off. I'm on fire.. I am so angry, I could jump off a bridge right now if I could... I'm so angry.. I can't even calm myself down. What the hell can I do... I went to the ER last week, saw the triage nurse than decided to leave. I don't know what the hell to do anymore